A Month to Live 22

It would only be month to face another life's challenge. To begin a new chapter with no clue on when it starts or how it will end. But one thing is for sure- it will be absolutely a further enduring one.

Everything has been a roller coaster ride of fate, of hope, of trust- quite an adventure in the process of continuous experience from learning; of doubt and believing; of building to destruction. Change is constant, adapting to reality is inevitable, and facing every consequence is an ordeal. Acceptance is objective. Triumph is immeasurable. Optimism is one great character while keeping such spirit at all times is admittedly tough. Freedom is a matter of setting one's limitation. Responsibilities are requirements and execution is burden. In the end, there is no formula in evaluating a perfect existence.

Many have heard a lot, knew the truth being outspoken about most of the things learned, lived, felt, thought, all that I was, what I have been. But afterwards, that loudness fades for no reason. It’s like making a promise to someone to keep a secret and eventually forget it since it should be a secret and it will remain a secret. Things happening and feelings instill in my head and kept in my heart that I managed to be good at keeping it, to the point of just completely forgetting it, seem like noting and get use to it- life goes on right?

No word can express how thankful I am to the few great people who walked with me in this journey and whom I shared my heart and thoughts with which as far as I know I truly believe I have sincerely had (don’t think you didn’t have enough), but I guess those were just very little parts that I can take away from the entire piece of what's inside that I, myself should also still have to decipher and figure out. It could be as hard as finding a great escape to get over, forget and start anew. To heal for just a second, to break free and to again conquer the impossibilities I once made out of myself.

Considering the past and the facts that could probably have somehow affected the realities faced or might lie ahead, I only have no regret but certainly grateful to whatever, whichever and to whoever molds every reason and aspect of what has become of me and should carry on armed with everything I gather along the way.

There will never have an end as long as there is always a beginning…